16//Lot In Life

    "Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working to overcome it."   This is a hard prompt for me today. I don't really have anything that's a true trouble to me right now. Sure, I have complaints. Sure, I'm not always happy. Honestly, I probably complain way more than I have the right to.   We're about to get real now. What do I complain about the most? Our living situation. Wanting to be a SAHM. Those are the big two.   Now let's be rational, Jenna. We have a roof over our head. Wes, Lincoln, & I have clothes on our back. I am lucky enough to have a job...in an economy where that isn't the case for many.   I try to remind myself to focus on the good [which is plentiful] and to enjoy the here and now. Enjoy the time I get with my thriving baby boy. I do a pretty good job, I think, while I'm with my boy.   It's when I'm not, that I sometimes let myself dwell on what I wish was. When I'm at work. After he goes to bed. I wish my husband was able to find that job of his dreams he's been looking for. I wish I could stay home with our [soon to be] two babies. I wish we lived in an area that had more to offer. I wish we had a newer more efficient home.   I wish, I wish, I wish...   What do I have, though? I have a beautiful growing baby who throws the preemie title in the doctor's face by continuing to jump up on the graphs at the well child appointments. I have a loving husband who takes the best care of our little boy while I'm at work. I have a husband who would do anything for me. I have a vehicle to get us from Point A to Point B safely. I have the means to put gas [$3.79!!!!] in the tank... ...food on the table [though I'm lately too lazy to prepare much]... ...clothes on our back... ...electricity in our home. I have a good stroller to take Lincoln on walks, which he loves. I have a warm and safe bed to retire to each night. I have family near [ranging from 1-20 miles away].   I savor the moments with Lincoln while he's this small. It's easy to focus on what he should be doing, what he needs to work on, what I should be doing more or better.     Instead,  ..I make sure I appreciate the sleeping baby in my arms when he finally stops groaning at bedtime. ...I take the time to make him laugh as much as possible. ...I tell him how proud I am of his progress and how big/good of a boy he is. ...I give him hugs and kisses, tell him I love him, and to be good for Daddy every time I leave the house.   It's easy to worry about how much life is going to change in 5 months. Instead, I cherish every moment with Lincoln before my attention has to be split.   What do I have?   Everything.