12//Responsibility

Happy Mother's Day to all the Momma's out there!

"What do you miss? (a person, a thing, a place, a time of your life...)"
I've entered a new chapter of my life lately. The wife chapter in 2011 and then the Momma chapter last November. They're the best chapters of my life, I feel. Right now I'm loving spending time with my husband baby. I'm soaking up these last 5 months as a family of 3. I'm enjoying the ease of simplicity our life seems to have while Lincoln isn't crawling [quite] yet or talking back [it's hard to think my sweet little angel will talk back, but he is my child, after all, so it's inevitable]. This time where sleep is normal good decent. Where we have such a good baby. Before karma plays a mean trick on us. [Lincoln is so perfect so I can only assume it'll be evened out with baby #2, right...?]
That being said, it's hard to think about or dwell on things, people, or places I miss. How can I miss a time in my life where my husband and babies weren't in it?
I guess if I have to choose something I miss, it's not a something at all. I suppose it could be defined as a time in my life, but I think of it rather as a ... well, I don't know, to tell you the truth.
I guess what I miss is not having the responsibility of bills and finances. Growing up I was spoiled [ok, truth be told, I still am]. I didn't have a job until I quit college [my first go around at college] at age 20. My parents bought me a car [definitely not new, so don't think I'm one of those kind of spoiled girls], they gave me gas money when I needed it, they gave me money to go to the movies or hang out with friends. I probably wasn't as appreciative then as I should have been. Being a teenager and all.
I love working with numbers. That's why I finally decided to get my accounting degree. Since I love working with numbers, I don't mind the structure of bills and finance. I keep a check register, I write every penny spent down, and I pay all of my bills on time. 
I miss not having the responsibility, though. Better yet, the worry. Money makes the world go 'round. Like it or not, we can't really live without it. Not a life anything close to what we're accustomed to, anyway. 
I'd like to work out a budget. Yes, I account for all of the money spent and balance my checkbook. No, I don't give myself "limits". Kelsey and Eric at Words of Williams do a great job talking about their budget. How they establish it, maintain it, and sit down each year to plan and revise as necessary. Hopefully one day I'll get to that point. 
How do you do it? How do you manage the responsibilities of...well, being an adult?